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The Living Without Series

This is a series of posts that I wrote back in 2006 on living with less stuff. Check them out: liv011Living #2liv031liv04

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The Chicken Doctor

April

The Architect

Clay

I can’t do it, or I’ll faint dead away

I need to talk to you about something I struggle with every time I go out in public.

It’s a fear of mine.

It makes me feel week and faint.

It’s makes me want to vomit.

If the kids or Clay are with me they quickly look at me to see if I’m going to faint or start hyperventilating. Sometimes I will reach out and grip their arm and squeeze it really hard until the scary feeling subsides and I can think of something happy.

I was going to post a picture to show you, but I kept swaying back and forth in front of the screen and knew I couldn’t handle it.

Okay, you ready?  Go look and then we’ll discuss this.

That was the nicest picture I could show you.  It’s those holes in the ears.  I don’t know why they bother me so much.  For Pete’s sake, my ears are pierced.  The young college crowd seems to be the most into doing this to their ears right now.  Those big plugs they put in there, oh Lord, that just sends my head spinning.

I can’t seem to get away from it anymore.  Everywhere I go there is another kid with huge holes in their ears.  Why?  Why do they do it?  Will they regret it when they’re older.  Is some plastic surgeon going to make a fortune repairing that damage in a few years?  Can it be repaired?  I just want it to go away and not hurt me anymore.  It does, it hurts me.  I’ve turned to my children and blurted with desperation in my voice, “Please!  Please don’t do that to your ears!  I won’t be able to look at you without getting sick or fainting!”

Hopefully, I can overcome this fear because it really is crazy.  I used to get scared of nose piercings and lots of ear cartilage piercings.  Ouch!  And the tongue, why the tongue?!  He hurts so terribly to bite your tongue, why do people choose to pierce it?!  Agh!  I can’t take it!

Okay, that’s all.  I just needed to share.  Go about your day.  I’m going to think of soft fluffy things and rainbows and candy.

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